I originally started this blog when I started to lead worship... unfortunately, that gig didn't last more than 6 months.  Afterwards, I went through a lot of spiritual ups and downs.  It was a time of grieving and questioning; lots of things had happened and I couldn't make out why.  But thankfully through that time, God really spoke to me about how to be real.  I also went through a time where I had to repent.  I had no idea how judgmental or arrogant a person I was.  I thought I knew who God was, what church was supposed to be, and what worship ought to look like.

And that's when it got all black, just like in the last episode of The Sopranos.